Other people turn around and laugh at you if you said that these are the best days of our lives

It has been a few weeks since I’ve written, but I have been running 5 times a week. I’ve gotten up to 2.4 miles each time. Not too bad, but I am not doing so well with the food.

I have found that running without calorie reduction isn’t that good. As a matter of fact, in my weigh-in on Monday I was 252.5. What the fuck! I am running more, but I am consuming so many calories I keep gaining more and more weight. This is just annoying.

Speaking of annoying, I have muscle spasms in my back. I didn’t realize how painful muscle spasms are. So I am on a muscle relaxant, an NSAIDs (Non-steroid anti-inflammatory drug) and moist heating pad every evening as well as daily back stretching exercises. The pain burns down my back into the low back. Then, after a long day of sitting at work, my neck starts to ache. I’ve been on the medications for three days and getting slowly better. Slowly being the key word.
That is one of the main reasons I haven’t been able to write. After a long day struggling though the work day I just don’t want to come home and sit in front of a computer (this blog entry has taken my about 1 ½ hours to type so far.) Oddly, I can run with no problem at all. As a matter of fact, running seems to make my back feel better. Not for long, but it does feel better.

Now I need to control calories. But I don’t seem to have any self control. I don’t know why. I want to stop eating so much food; I bring good things to work to eat, then I get there and eat out of the vending machine. Then I get home and just don’t stop. Once I can get back to where I once was, I’ll be good since I’m running.

Well, as long as my back gets back to normal. Being in back pain regularly sucks. Maybe then I can get back to updating this blog regularly while working hard.

Oh, and I’ve grown a beard. For the winter, of course.

I like to take a walk out in the midday. Ah, but I avoid the city after dark

Not a bad week for me. I ran 5 times for over 2.2 miles each time. Eating still a problem, but I will get there soon. I know I can run, and I think next week I’m going to try to reach 2.5 miles each time.

Here is what I’m having a problem with the “gay scene” in Pittsburgh. I know I’m not some great looking guy and I’m not in any type of shape right now. But, if you would have been watching the guys reaction at the bar last night, you would have thought that I was some contagious monster.

Gary & I went out to the Pittsburgh Eagle last night to meet up with a friend of his, Rick, and Rick’s new boyfriend John. We got there first and decided to walk around the second floor, where the dance floor is, and it was, as usual, packed. Gary decided we should walk around the dance floor, and as we walked around, Gary about 5 feet in front of me, I noticed a strange phenomenon. The guys would squeeze a bit closer when Gary walked up to them, and then they were pushing themselves the opposite way when I walked up.

Now I know Gary is smaller than I am, but it started becoming a bit obvious that they were contorting themselves like they were alternate members of Cirque de Soleil! I’ve been to The Eagle many times before, obviously, but I never noticed the guys parting like a herd of elephants were coming through Red Nile right behind Moses when I walked through a crowded room.

It isn’t like I was trying to cruise guys or anything like that. I had my hands on my pockets and was innocently looking around. Maybe it was just me noticing something that wasn’t there, or maybe I was just seeing it for the first time. Maybe the contrast between Gary in front of me having to squeeze through the boys and then the guys jumping out of my way made it obvious.

Or maybe I’m just paranoid. I think I better get a hold of my food intake soon or I might be seeing things that may or may not be there.